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Saturday, December 12, 2009 @ 8:53 pm

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I have so many things in my mind and I'm going to sort them all out here tonight. After this, I am not going to repeat myself anymore.

Is friendship really very fragile? I think it depends on who your friend is. I don't have such problems with Cheryl and Angtint. I seem to have know them forever. What I cannot believe is even Yanling understand how I feel. The strength of a friendship does not only rely on how know we know each other. Look at how Yanling and I get along now?

What I'm upset about is how you treat us. As a friend, we are real infront of you. We show you how we feel, tell you what we think is wrong, although sometimes we may not be correct, but we bother to tell you. We don't talk behind your back and yet, look at how you treated us. We're like acquaintance now. You treat HER like your best friend but you don't know how unreal she was to you in the past. Do you know how hurt are we after seeing such things happening? You go to her for everything, but us? We're invisible. Wow, I never knew we had such special power. Thanks for letting us know huh. When she go to you for anything, you're there. How about us? When we really hope that you come, all you say is "Sorry or Are you OK?" Wtf? I don't need this alright. This is what I call surface concern. Just to show outsiders that you care, but in fact, it's just asking for the sake of asking. I'm sorry, but I don't need this. You can just shut up. I'm not saying that you're a hypocrite and I know you're not. But, you seem to be acting like one. I hate to know about so much things. I use to care so much about you, worry about you because you're my good friend. And this is how you repay me? Thank you. You show everyone that you are the kind that keeps everything to yourself. But well, I know that you tell HER everything. You do not treat us as your true friends because you never have faith in us. What's the use of me bothering so much about you? Getting so upset about how you treat us? I'm sorry but I'm not going to tell you straight in your face about it because you'll end up telling HER and continue everything all over again. Sometimes, you just make me feel like you always didn't want to be friend with us. It is because we happened to become your friend, so you reluctantly accept it. I don't need such friendship, and I promise, from today onwards, you lead your own life. Until the day I see you coming to me, and be truthful to me, then we'll be friends like now. If not, Good Bye. and I'm sorry to be so harsh.

And for people who are selfish and yet pretend to be caring for their friends, please get lost. You suck. I don't like to hide my feelings. Although I don't say anything, doesn't mean I cannot see anything. I'm not blind. You are overly selfish. Not everyone is as heartless as me, but I'm sorry because I don't like to be plastic. Just don't appear at any outings when I'm out with my close friends(you know who you are). Can't you just see that you're getting on many people's nerve already? I don't believe you don't know anything. You're not stupid. You just pretend. Keeping quiet does not make you become a victim. Being a Problem is already something that cannot be changed. Can't you just step out and solve it? Instead of doing this, you're dragging everybody into this bloody shit. It's fine with me if you drag people whom does not revolve around me. I won't give a fuck about it. But now, you're dragging one of my closest friend in. I am very pissed with you. Remember the other time I had conflict with -, you didn't even bother to help her. You never bother to tell me that she is actually not as bad as I thought she was at first. But luckily, I manage to know her better. She's like a gazillion times better than you. Get your ass off the chair and solve the damn ass problem that has been around for almost 6 months. If not, you should just fucking get out of my life. Or stop showing those pretentious face infront of me. You make me wanna puke. Friends have asked me to tell you, or rather advise you. But my reply is, I'm not going to say anything to you because you don't deserve it. Only my friends deserve helps and advices from me. You are no longer a friend to me because you drag my closest friend into deep shit.

Even being so far away, I can actually know such things happening. Sometimes I should just shut my mind out from these things. They're just draining my energy.

Read and figure out who I'm talking to. Don't come and ask me "You ok not?" and stuffs like that. I'm fine!

Thanks to these, I'm not looking forward to this year's Christmas.

PS: Above are 2 different person.

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