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Footprints

Emo-ing

I was watching tv and I caught an advertisment or rather a news on this 80plus old grandma got cheated $400. This $400 is to be used for her daughter's medical fee. I saw her tears roll down her cheeks. Makes me feel so sad about it. I don't know why, but it seems like I can feel the pain within her. I really feel like helping her, in any possible way. I feel damn sad now.

Looking at her reminds me of grandmama. It's been almost 3 years since grandmama past away. You know what? I am still living in regrets. For not visiting/chatting her for almost a year. When she was lying in hospital, I didn't had a chance to speak to her because she was in coma. During that time, I do not feel anything much about regrets, just pure sadness because I've lost my grandma, the great lady who took care of me since I was baby. To add on I was known as her favourite grand-daugther. Aunts dislike me because of this fact. One word for them, JEALOUSY. Well, that's already the past. So, as time goes by, I slowly realised the regrets I have. No matter how truely sorry I am, this is something that can never be forgiven or changed. Sometimes, I really hope that I can turn back time. I know that's never going to happen. It's just a tiny hope in my heart. What I have learnt is... If your grandparents are still around, do spend time with them. Especially if they are the ones who actually took care of you since young. Although I am not very close with my maternal grandparents, I'll visit them at least once a month. For the fact that I do not want history to repeat itself. Such things CANnot and MUST not repeat twice. Don't make the same mistake. Such mistakes can never be forgiven nor forgotten.

Regrets are scars that no plastic surgeon in the world can remove.