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Wednesday, July 22, 2009 @ 10:28 am

more like...

for your own good.

for your own convenient.

for your own welfare.

for your own likings.

for your own preference.

for your own needs.

for your own wants.

Don't tell me about that's for me. Yes, I do not deny the fact about it being a better and proper way but have you ever thought that it's like you think for yourself more. Everything is base on your mood. Because you control our main source. Because you earn more. Because you give me allowance. Because you paid for my education. Whatever!

You insist that we must obey you. Yes, we should. But even on things that are not correct? Then what for you pay for my education since you think that I should always answer you like a genie? "your wish is my command". That's totally not possible.

Take August 8 for an example, you put your sisters, in a more important position than us. They say okay, we also must okay, if not, you will get all so pissed and start your threatening all over again. Over the years, we had enough. We are tolerating, your mood swings. I don't vent my anger on people, but you do. When you are unhappy, you give us, or rather me, sucky attitude. Yes, I do owe you a living, but is there a need to give me this kind of attitute when i am not the person who pissed you?

I respect you because you are super duper ultra nice when you're nice. & vice versa. I am just ranting because I know this will never be changed. I have to continue with this life, for this is my life isn't it?

On the outside, we look like a slightly well-off family, but when you say as a family, we failed badly. Paternal side, totally gone. Maternal, because of our Queen, it's still oooookkkkayyyyyy.

I should start creating a private blog for myself. lj? bs? wp? ah, whatever. I hope I don't need to because all problems will be solve in no time. i hope?! :/ keeping my fingers crossed.

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On a lighter note, I manage to make my way through and made both my parents nod head for the genting trip. I told them Oct and they said, fine. So, things need to be done asap to prevent them from changing their mind again. I have flickered minded parents, btw.

I am having a super good mood today. I reach office 10 mins earlier. and I'm going to leave office 10mins earlier. Meeting Hermes after work later. Town! Haven't been towning for long. We'll be watching Harry. I'm already craving for that movie and I don't think I can wait any longer for my cousins to date me. I think I'll watch it again with them, I suppose? :) I'm going to say this, mum always nods head when i'm out with Hermes even if I'm home slightly later because she knows her well, sees her at work everyday. Plus, she likes her. Bias-ness, that is. And... I didn't watch Harry with Meiyi and the rest yesterday.

I think I'm missing alot in life or I should say, time with friends. I'm leading a sadistic life. My goodness. These rubbish should just get lost. Oh, and did i mention? 1 problem is down! I'm happy for myself. (:

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