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Thursday, July 09, 2009 @ 11:50 am

Self-control! *trying very hard*

"Self control is the ability to control one's emotions and desires, is the capacity of efficient management to the future. In psychology it is sometimes called self-regulation, and exerting self-control through the executive functions in decision making is thought to deplete a resource in the ego."

Source from wikipedia.

I actually wonder did i actually live my life to the fullest everyday? The answer is No. Well, what does it actually mean when you say, I live my life to the fullest? Everyone has their own definition to this, and for my case, I think being happy everyday is already to the fullest. It's not that you can live happily everyday you know. Especially when it's on those unlucky days, where you actually fall flat on grounds and embarrass yourself. Having bad hair day, no matter how you try to make yourself look good, you still fail badly. So, if you are able to be happy now, just appreciate it, because you'll never know what will happen the next moment. Hmmm, maybe it's the end of world after that? Then you'll realise, Hey! I've never had a chance to visit the other part of the world yet, haven't seen the wonders in life yet, how can I actually give up on myself? So what if you look ugly, you won't be the ugliest, because there is definately someone uglier. So what if you're fat, you won't be the fattest. If not, you're already in the Guinness World Record already. So live everyday to make yourself happy.

Talking about self-control. If I actually control and limit myself, isn't making myself unhappy? So ya, I am contradicting myself now. Anyhow, life is filled with ups and down. It's only a matter in how you look at it isn't it? I'm telling myself that, controlling now (referring to my spendings), will increase the amount of money I have in future, for "rainy" days and stuffs. And I don't have to feel poor. That feeling really sucks. Seriously, when you don't have money in your wallet, and you can't withdraw from atm, it's like, you feel super lost. My goodness. And I think my credit cards are the main culprits that make me overspend. My parents constantly applying new cards for me. Telling me the privileges for car petrol, shoppings, food, groceries, entertainment... practically for everything. Never did they think, that I'll keep using it to sign till I'm broke. Now, they start to warn me about my spendings, but isn't it abit too late? I'm trying to cut down on my spendings, they can't expect me to stop spending overnight what!

Honestly, I've already reduce the amount I spend by alot. I used to shop online like nobody's business. My account has $1k, I can spend till left $20. Stop asking me how I actually manage to spend this much, because I also don't know why. So, I will and I must reduce my spending. I promise myself and I will definately do it. :D

I know my post is getting very boring. But, it's my blog, I should post what I feel right? In my previous posts, I've rant alot, due to the problems I've been undergoing. I thank all my friends for being my side, supporting me, believing in me, and even trust me. I love you!

Okay, and to people out there who are actually upset, or not happy for the day, try to smile at least a little, it'll help! I'm here, you can share your problems with me, you should know, I'm always here, just a phone call away. :)

Oh oh, I finally manage to FTP the company's website up! hohoho!~ Visit here to view the site. :D

P.S: I'm starting to pity you, but too bad, you made me dislike you. shooo!~

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