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Footprints

I am very bored. BORED.

and I think I rock can! I've not made a single phone call. And I've not done anything for the whole day. Hmmm, okay, I did do something la. Erm, I downloaded 2 fashion videos. Hahaha! that's all. I think I'm more of a free-loader than a cheap-labour. Okay, I love my job except the boring part. Bored bored bored. I think my boss will go bonkers if he knows i've yet call any after him emailing me a script. I am damn good at procrastinating can! praise me.

I think he's just too kind, that's why I'm taking advantage of his kindness. okokokokok! I promise I'll call by Monday kay? Today really no mood. I facebook-ed for 2 longgggg hours lor. And I am left NOTHING to do. I need some entertainments. Any advice?

Oh, btw, angel and suping and kim have been entertaining me most of the time lor. Thankyou so much girls! Alright, I'll be able to meet Dears and Darlings tomorrow. A happy day for me to await its arrival. And for now, I shall continue rotting till 6.30pm. Don't be suprise if I decomposed. -__-"



I wanted to sleep till i wake up naturally and not by my hp alarm clock or by my maid waking me up. But then, last night at 12plus am, i realised i left my rings in office. And if i am not going to office today, i have no rings for the weekend. totally OMG!

So, i slept till 8.30am (knowing that my boss will be away till monday), and i reach office at around 9.45am. I rushed out of house. Don't even have the time to wear sandals kay. I wore slipper instead. You know, similar to havana flip flop. What a footwear to be worn to office. Well, nevermind that. And i am so damn sleepy now that I can actually doze off facing the laptop screen.

As usual, I am still procrastinating on calling those bloody people. I think I'll fake sick later and go home sleep or... I don't know la. Maybe after lunch, is easier to rot, then i'll just rot till 6.30pm.

I have no money for weekends lei. Seriously, I have no idea how i spend my money this week. Oh, I need to get a dress for next Saturday's family photoshoot. I've been eating ALOT lately. Yes, putting on weight non-stop. Damn, I need to do some dieting. But but, i can't resist the temptation of food! Self-control, that is!

All the best to me and well wishes. HAHAHA. I shall continue to procrastinate.

Should I or should I not take MC tomorrow? I don't want to make those phone calls. Yes, I've been procrastinating the whole day. I am such a slacker. I admit! (:

Well well, I am excited for the arrival of Saturday. Hmmm, won't be going for waikeong's 21st as darling lynnette is having her 22nd birthday dinner. Well, but i'm still sharing present with dears. Apart from that, what should I get for Lynnette? okay, since it's her 22nd birthday, I shouldn't get anything for her right? HAHAHAHA!

Okay, it's past 6.30pm. Home sweet home! :D

I'm starting to dislike this kind of life all over again. Procrastinating on and on. This is never ending. I hate it, like totally.

Sometimes i just dont know what the f*** i'm typing. Don't know what stupid mind set I have. And now, to recall about it, well, it totally suck. Lousy this and lousy that. Whatever you say, it's fine.

I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm like so easily offended. Like why? Petty? NO! There's a reason can! I am not going for the class chalet because I suddenly don't feel like going. I will tell you the reason if I want to, so don't bother asking me if I didn't say.

I am very suprised for the fact that I have even more trusted friends than before. Although some suck as usual, but some really let me understand and trust them even more. Although we used to talk so little, hang out so little, it doesn't really matter. It's fated isn't it?

It's because of the word FRIEND, thats why I kept my mouth shut no matter how pissed i get with you. I am so pissed that even when we meet, I still have to bring myself to act normal. This is because I bloody cared for your feelings and don't want the situation to become awkward.

Because you are my FRIEND, that's why I give you 1,2,3.... and so bloody many chances. I hope you treasure it. When I'm not happy with your actions, I tell you, but you bloody told others about you being unhappy with me. Totally pissed with this. I am NEVER going to tell you how i feel. I'll just shut my mouth. Don't think that you are mature, because you are no better.

I don't say that I'm good and stuffs. I know the logic of pointing someone with 1 finger, 3 fingers point back to myself. FYI, I never say I'm mature. I let those bloody things past and yet, you keep giving damnass attitude. S-U-C-K.

I have attitude problem towards people I don't like, and i'll try my best to control my attitude towards my friend unless I really cannot take it. Spare a thought for your friends, if not, I wouldn't be suprise if history repeats itself.

Alright, it's thursday. Friday is approaching. Can't wait for the weekends manxxzxz! (:


my love - garfield

Today started off lousily. I am damn unlucky since morning. I forgot to bring - out this morning. As I was meeting my colleagues at Expo MRT station to go to Changi office to get stuffs, I asked dad to give a ride there. Well, he asked me to drive instead. So, while driving at TPE, there was no jam, very good indeed, but when we were about to reach the changi office, this damn bloody bus suddenly stopped infront. Eh, almost accident can, wth! Not forgetting it was the 2nd time this morning. There was this bloody taxi did the same thing. You tell me, i'm lucky or what? Almost died lor.

I was procrastinating since 10plus when i reached office. I had to call some company to "promote" our advertising service. Yes, similar to telemarketing. So, when i finally decided to call, this bloody boss totally pissed me off. "We have been doing well for the past 20 years, we do not need extra services such as advertising. Moreover, our outlets are at restricted areas such as Changi Airport. There is no need for such advertising. I appreciate you call, but I think it's fine. We don't need this service." Totally damn bloody pissed. You don't have to tell me how well you've been the last 20 years because I wasn't even born yet. And the worse thing was, I have to end the conversation saying "Oh, alright. Sorry to disturb you(he said,"oh no it's fine"). Thank You for listening." He hangs up and I slam the damn phone. I was damn angry can. And the way he spoke. wah lau, feel like scolding him. [adds in vulgarities].

Did i actually mentioned that my korean boss and colleagues actually laughed when i slammed the phone? they are damn mean to laugh at me. super mean, that is. ):

This is retribution. I always scold customer service officer and this is what i get in return. Serve me right. Wow, thanks! I still have a list to go and I'm procratinating all over again. My god! I am damn reluctant to call. ):

I feel like sleeping. I can't wait for 6.30pm to arrive. I'm meeting meiyi, suping, daphne, regina later. Damn excited to meet them can! :D Anticipating~

I am still as lazy. Rot whole day at work already yet, i still want to continue rotting despite having work on hand. I have a list of numbers to call and speak to the managers. So troublesome can. I think I'll skip those supervisors' number as I doubt they can make any decisions. What an awesome task for me. Don't feel like speaking to any of them. I hope all the numbers are no longer in use. Ya, I know, dream on...

Alright, I need to get these done by today. End work in 1hr! yes yes, another day down. (:

weird weird weird. no names mentioned but whole post was copied and pasted. =.= nevermind, since it's over.

on a very very light note, i'll be meeting fangying later. (: update again!

i think this year is the year of B*tch. Soon, i'll become one. The same as how H1N1 spreads isn't it? Victim, i should say...

whatever!

Just ignore the cancelled. Misunderstanding that is. (:

has it become a trend that people have no mouth to ask and find out what exactly is going on and just say what they think is right but happens to be wrong? Or has it become a trend to say and not ask? Maybe these people are to timid, or has they lost their courage somewhere?

hiding behind the laptop/computer has become a habit for these timid people. you know, we don't bite. or maybe we do, but to b*tches and bast*ards only. unless you admit you are one of them? or should i classify you one of them?

if you think "forking out for us"(but you did it willingly, contradicting) makes you feel so angry or maybe you are too poor, why didn't you just let us know? we will jolly well give you the cash you needed or donate since you need "shareholders" when you celebrate birthdays for your friends. we appeared, because we have face to come, unlike you, no mouth. you can chase us out, i forgot, it isn't your house. you have no say, oh poor thing... so, we were there weren't we? why can't you ask? Did we say we were going to eat in the first place. Did we? Don't put words in our mouths. oh, or you dont even have a mouth to eat right? hmmm, quite true. you only type to convey your message and anger behind your laptop/computer(hiding in the cyber world) and not confront us face-to-face? you scary cat. Oh no, i shouldn't use cat, it's a humiliation for the cat species.

are we self-admiting? yes we are, because indeed we didn't contribute to your so-called gathering(when you only mingle with your own cliques). this is called honesty. not that we don't have the cash, but we weren't told in the first place(no mouth to ask and inform again). excuse me, did we even eat your oh-so-expensive-food? Or did you intend to charge us for drinks? i can i-bank to you. how about $10? maybe i was right that you are too poor that's why you need me to donate right? personally i think $10 for 5 cups are far too expensive because i can buy 3 bottles of what we drink at a cheaper price, but, donation is a good deed. which home/charity oragnisation do you want me to transfer to?

i am free like a bird. if you manage to finally found your mouth to ask and not say(because you only knew shits), wow, i'll be so happy for you.

anyway, what is p__? oh, you failed english didn't you?

thus i decided to get the specific meaning of c-h-i-l-d-i-s-h as a favour for you incase you are too stupid to understand what is immature, because till this age, you still didn't know its meaning. that's very stupid. and for future needs, you can always go to www.dictionary.com for the meanings of vocabulary words.

child⋅ish

–adjective
1. of, like, or befitting a child: childish games.
2. puerile; weak; silly: childish fears.

Origin:
bef. 1000; ME childisch, OE cildisc.

Related forms:
child⋅ish⋅ly, adverb
child⋅ish⋅ness, noun

Synonyms:
Childish, infantile, childlike refer to characteristics or qualities of childhood. The ending -ish often has unfavorable connotations; childish therefore refers to characteristics that are undesirable and unpleasant: childish selfishness, outbursts of temper. Infantile, originally a general word, now often carries an even stronger idea of disapproval or scorn than does childish: infantile reasoning, behavior. The ending -like has pleasing or neutral connotations; childlike therefore refers to the characteristics that are desirable and admirable: childlike innocence, trust.

Antonyms:
mature, adult.

Dictionary.com Unabridged
Based on the Random House Dictionary, © Random House, Inc. 2009.

you don't have to thank me for this favour, i won't complain about it because i did it willingly.

I love my Best Friend, Cheryl Woon. (:
She's like the best ever, I am one lucky girl. *beams*


I not only love, but also adore Fridays.
Don't you feel the same too? ;)

Stupid photobucket. under maintanance again. Blogger upload images in such small size even when the LARGE is selected. ah, whatever. I'm whinning again, i know.

Today, i tortured my stomach with very spicy food. Now, it's like burning within. Goodness me. But i enjoyed my lunch though. haha! && i went over to funan to get polar swiss sugar rolls, apple strudels and some puffs. I spent $11plus i think. (: not alot right? :/

I was late for work this morning. stupid! it's not my fault you know. I didn't oversleep. Neither did I miss my bus. I even left my house early to meet Melville and get something from him. And i reminded myself not to leave the house late and cause mel to be late for work again, which would be the 3rd time. I feel damn bad you know. So, I left my house on time and met him at the traffic light at my house's bus stop and talk abit before going to the bus stop. And the bus came late. 7 mins later than usual. The great CTE jammed like crazy. I reached Bencoolen at 9.20am. Well, i had wait for another bus to reach office. So, i actually missed the 147 which is infront of the bus i took. yes, lucky me. So i took 190 instead and i was 6mins late. Argh. Actually I wont be late one lor. [enters unhappiness here].

Fine. The day did not start off well. But I'm rotting my ass off now. I have nothing, yes, NOTHING. The freaking website has been updated and ftp-ed up. Damn happy can. (:

It's friday. yay! *i see fireworks*

i am one lucky girl aren't i?

went to ion just now with one of my colleague. while she gets the company job done at the station, i get to walk around and window shop at the humongous new shopping centre because of some special reasons. ion has Basement1 to 4. omg, soon, we will have shopping centres with B8. haha! i almost got lost there can. how dumb! whatever it is, i found a new shopping place. it has almost everything i want there.

control control... i didn't buy anything. aren't you proud of me? ;)


i can't upload photo. stupid blogger.



I hate to admit it. But I didn't really like the movie. Oh whatever. I feel very sad about dumbledore's death. It seems like he died for nothing. Or should I say, the author shouldn't let him die what... Okay, forget it. I don't feel like watching this movie another time. There're very little excitement. More of jealousy and love. now, i cant wait for the next movie in 2010. and i hope New Moon will be better?

I did some changes to my blog yesterday afternoon. maybe i'll do more changes today. will see about it.

The company website's error is still not solved. It looks fine on the internet because that's the old version. Obviously I can't put the new but spoilt version up what. =.= okay continue with the editing. byebyebyebyebye.

stupid msn, doesn't let me sign in. just started work and i'm facing problems already. now i have to try to solve the damn dreamweaver problem. update later...

i am damn pissed with dreamweaver. i dont know what the f*ck is wrong with it. Redo the whole damn bloody thing but it still doesnt work. so many things in my mind now. i put it aside but it just keeps coming back. i can't stop thinking. i'm having headache. i can't figure out. i feel like dying. i feel like killing the damn bloody dreamweaver.

everything goes wrong wrong wrong. nothing is going right. i feel very lost. i doubt anyone would bother helping. i don't know. i feel like breaking down. how long more can i persevere. KILL ME.



*//Edited

I went to cine to buy the tickets just now. I am super glad to use my handy dandy UOB one Card. Bought 2 tickets at only $10. wahahaha! Thanks to the multiple usage of it, there are SMART$ for me to redeem. I should use my card more often. yes yes yes. *nods head*

Anyway, the BBQ thing is stupid. Very irritated with it already.


Don't tell me about that's for me. Yes, I do not deny the fact about it being a better and proper way but have you ever thought that it's like you think for yourself more. Everything is base on your mood. Because you control our main source. Because you earn more. Because you give me allowance. Because you paid for my education. Whatever!

You insist that we must obey you. Yes, we should. But even on things that are not correct? Then what for you pay for my education since you think that I should always answer you like a genie? "your wish is my command". That's totally not possible.

Take August 8 for an example, you put your sisters, in a more important position than us. They say okay, we also must okay, if not, you will get all so pissed and start your threatening all over again. Over the years, we had enough. We are tolerating, your mood swings. I don't vent my anger on people, but you do. When you are unhappy, you give us, or rather me, sucky attitude. Yes, I do owe you a living, but is there a need to give me this kind of attitute when i am not the person who pissed you?

I respect you because you are super duper ultra nice when you're nice. & vice versa. I am just ranting because I know this will never be changed. I have to continue with this life, for this is my life isn't it?

On the outside, we look like a slightly well-off family, but when you say as a family, we failed badly. Paternal side, totally gone. Maternal, because of our Queen, it's still oooookkkkayyyyyy.

I should start creating a private blog for myself. lj? bs? wp? ah, whatever. I hope I don't need to because all problems will be solve in no time. i hope?! :/ keeping my fingers crossed.


On a lighter note, I manage to make my way through and made both my parents nod head for the genting trip. I told them Oct and they said, fine. So, things need to be done asap to prevent them from changing their mind again. I have flickered minded parents, btw.

I am having a super good mood today. I reach office 10 mins earlier. and I'm going to leave office 10mins earlier. Meeting Hermes after work later. Town! Haven't been towning for long. We'll be watching Harry. I'm already craving for that movie and I don't think I can wait any longer for my cousins to date me. I think I'll watch it again with them, I suppose? :) I'm going to say this, mum always nods head when i'm out with Hermes even if I'm home slightly later because she knows her well, sees her at work everyday. Plus, she likes her. Bias-ness, that is. And... I didn't watch Harry with Meiyi and the rest yesterday.

I think I'm missing alot in life or I should say, time with friends. I'm leading a sadistic life. My goodness. These rubbish should just get lost. Oh, and did i mention? 1 problem is down! I'm happy for myself. (:


all in one. (:

Stupid photobucket, dont know what shit, cannot access now(well, after several attempts, i manage to access photobucket). And blogger uploads photos in a smaller size and taking 10 gazilion years to upload. knsknskns. [enter vulgarities here]. Argh!

I am having a better mood now. Yes, mood swings. But okay la. I think around 12, my mood still not so good, but towards 1pm, my mood, wahahaha, i am suddenly smiling. (:

I spent almost 2 hours creating the above image lor. Sourcing of photos was the most time consuming. And i realised that I couldnt find many photos in my laptop and i found alot of photos that I took in the past from all sources like friendster, hi-5, past entries, multiply and etc. Blogging has been pretty helpful in some ways. I took some photos from the past entries. hahaha! I should upload more photos in time to come.

OMG OMG, I haven't spend my allowance for this week yet. Damn proud of myself can. Wahahaha!

Regarding to the previous post. Hey hey hey, people! Don't have to take it to heart. I am not referring to the majority of you. In fact, the person I'm referring to someone who don't seem to read my blog, i think, since it's like...(don't wanna recall).

Anyway, 2nd post of the day to enlighten my blog because yanling says i'm too emo. Hey, I'm not lor. and I today never STM. I will try my best to not STM so that i will not have your bad influence. hahaha :P

Hmmm, maybe a joke for the day?

It was the postman’s last day on the job after 25 years of carrying the mail through all kinds of weather.
When he arrived at the first house on his route he was greeted by the whole family there, who congratulated him and sent him on his way with a big gift envelope.
At the second house they presented him with a box of fine cigars.
The folks at the third house handed him a selection of terrific fishing floats.

At the fourth house he was met at the door by a woman in a revealing negligee. She took him by the hand, gently led him through the door, and led him up the stairs to the bedroom where she blew his mind with the best shag he had ever had.

He staggered downstairs, and she made a giant breakfast: eggs, bacon, sausage, beans, and fresh-squeezed orange juice. When he was truly satisfied she poured him a cup of steaming coffee. As she was pouring, he noticed a pound coin under the saucer.
"That was just too wonderful for words," he said, "but what’s the pound for ?"
"Well," she said, "last night, I told my husband that today would be your last day, and that we should do something special for you. I asked him what to give you."
He said, "Fuck him, give him a quid - the breakfast was my idea."

Don't laugh at your screen, it's stupid. haha. shhhhhs, i smiled abit at my screen though. (:

I told yanling that this post will be happier but suddenly no mood. sorry ya. I don't even have mood to post a photo. Maybe tomorrow?

Sometimes, I hope everything can restart. Like playing a game, when you know you're losing, or even when you lost, you can always restart. But that does not imply to us, in real life. It is easier said then done. People tends to not know what's happening, especially when you don't open your mouth and tell them. Have they ever thought that not everything are so easy to be said out? It can be very awkard or even the person just do not have the courage to say. Sometimes, I pity people who do not have understanding friends by their side.

For my case, I hope my friends will still be as understanding. I've become very stubborn on several things. Or maybe quite alot? I don't know. Friends who are always tolerating with me are called true friends. They do get unhappy, and they tell me. I am not upset upon them telling me, in fact, I appreciate. It just shows that they do care about me. If a person do not care about you, he/she will not bother to even talk to you.

Lynnette has been really "loving" lately too. She asked me out. We haven't been hanging out for very long and I really meant longggggg. Meiyi has been the middle person for quite a number of things. I know about her difficult position but still, I remained stubborn. Well, but isn't this why we tends to love Meiyi more? (: I've already tried to compromise. abit. That's the most I can give. Alot of things have been revolving around me. Things that I've decided to ignore, but they just kept coming and coming, thus leaving me no choice to ignore. Now, I can't simply ignore. You just don't know how I really feel, how reluctant I am, but I still had to give in... So much so that I told myself I am never going to give in. Not anymore to anything. I've reached my limit. Especially to double headed people.

And my parents aren't as nice as what you people have seen. Do you know I have to go through alot before I can have some freedom? I'm being abit too much to be asking more and more from them. They are very unhappy with me. I haven't told them about class chalet. I doubt they'll nod their heads upon knowing. It's like I can't solve a problem outside, and there's problems to be solved at home. How much brain juice do I need to convice my parents? Not all parents are the same, mine is exceptional, I should say. They make decisions depending on their mood. On "Rainy days", all answers will be NO and on "sunny days", it will depends on situation. Whats worst? Doesnt mean they say Yes now, means yes all the way. If one of them says No, the answer will end up No. How nice? How would you feel?

I even cried silently, no one knows how bad this feels. Try standing in my shoes... It's not easy to go through till today. As time passes, I learn to face things with a smile on my face. But not always the smile is natural, and it's been quite awhile I laughed my heart out. I just simply don't feel good now. I can't bring myself to type happily and smiling infront of my laptop.

I am not ranting, I am just sharing my feelings and maybe you can understand me better. If you take this as an offence then just ignore. Because you are still as selfish to only think about yourself.

P.S: Please don't ask me who, I don't want to say.


no longer the same. ):

Looking back at the past photos, really brings back those wonderful memories. Well, there're torturous ones too. Just trying to ignore them. Looking on a brighter side is always better right? Anyhooo, I'm feeling very lethargic today. I don't think it's lack of sleep because I've slept alot during weekends. I just do not have enough of "lazing at home" time, maybe?

Totally no mood to do any photoshop. I'll just rot whole day. Don't ask me about my weekly report because i just simply add craps in. Looking at the above image, I'm quite impressed with myself can. It's done without photoshop as I didn't even know how to use photoshop in Sec 3. Yes, I'm only 15 yrs old in that photo, and I simply love that old photo if me. Don't ask me about the original one because I have no idea where it is. Btw, I took this image from my friendster profile.

And today is a lousy day to start with because...

I FORGOT TO BRING MY PHONE OUT!

Yes, I think it is lying somewhere in my room. I remember putting it in my bag this morning but when i was looking for it at the bus stop, I can't find it. Okay, so maybe I did not put it in my bag. How stupid! Stm again. ): Starting of the week already like that, don't know what will happen in the following days. Sign~

Sudden urge to sleep. I need to keep myself awake. ROAR!


maybe a change would be better for me.

I feel that everything has change. Me. You. Us. I am getting very sick of being here, in this country. I don't know why. Nononono, it has nothing to do with my friends. These bunch of people are like the best people I've met in my life so far. But, I really want to go overseas to study and I don't feel like coming back to this working society. Maybe my point of view will change as time passes, but for now, I just dislike being here.

If you ask me about my plans, I'll say, hmmmm, I'm not sure. Well, I don't think my parents will allow me to study overseas after poly graduation. They said only if I want to continue studying after I get my Degree, then they will let me go overseas. That's what they say, but it doesn't mean I disagree what they say. I seriously don't mind their decision. I realised I'm changing myself, as days goes by... I've been through so much that even now, when I recall, I feel disgusted by the actions and things I did in the past. I even despise the past me, don't ask me why. Because I don't even know the answer. Maybe I still suck now, and I'll realise in the next 5-10 years. For now, I like being me. (:

I think recently I've been doing too many images using photoshop till I'm on the process of becoming crazy. Yes, C-R-A-Z-Y! Time is passing really slowly. Actually, I totally don't have mood to blog today, and don't even intend to blog. But I am just too bored. Can someone save me from this bordem? Argh!

I like that photo of me alot la. So you constantly see me using. Today's photo is blending lor. What else? I've been blending photos the whole of today. So, the above image has 4 photos blended. Try spotting the 4 images. (:

Okay, anyway, KIM! KIM! *wink wink* hahaha. Hopefully it'll be an awesome "show". I know some of you don't know what I'm typing about. It's an inside plan. People who knows will understand. :D

It's Friday again and 6.30pm faster come. PLEASE...~


if our city has a field of sunflower, wouldn't it be good? (:

I am very very x100000 bored. I've edited many photos lor. The above is one of the many I've done. I like the combination of it among the rest because sunflower plus our city, doesn't it make our city looks more lively? haha, alright, I'm thinking too much. So, I'm actually making backgrounds for a korean restaurant at Illuma, the new shopping centre at Bugis.

This morning, while i was waiting for bus, a god damn ant bit my feet. dammit, and that was when i was about to board the bus I've waited for about 5mins. While boarding the bus, my feet was feeling the pain and the itchy-ness. Super irrtated. And even i want to scratch it also can't because it's at the sole of my feet! Super ugly if i were to do that on the bus. I reach office on the dot, as usual. It' week 7 and I've always been reaching office on the dot, wahaha! I can estimate my time very well isn't it? :D *self-praise*

I can't wait for tomorrow because after Friday it's Weekends! I can laze at home doing nothing. Totally looking forward to doing nothing can! At least can lie on my bed, stare abit on the computer screen or watch tv or rot. Eat, sleep, rot... This kind of life is boring but if you have a hectic week, it's an awesome life to actually eat, sleep and rot.

It seems that I haven't been meeting dears for sometime already. We should meet soon lar~ Damn rude lei, these people. wahaha! Okay, I've actually limit myself to only go out at most twice per week(exclu. weekends). This can actually help me save money lor. Till now, I only spent $5 of this week allowance can! Super proud of myself. lol.

Here's a story which i picked from the email(has 6 stories) sent by shuhui:




Totally agree with the story. *nods head* 很闷啊！Is there any entertainment out there? ):


P.S: you people should click on the play button and listen to the song! It makes me super happy and high when i hear it. *under the sea, under the sea~*



Universal Studio Singapore! yay-ness~

Yes, you didn't see wrongly, and I did not do any photoshopping alright! Can you believe it? Omg, totally cannot believe this. Although we do not have Disneyland, neither do we have Warner Brothers. Guess what? We're going to have Universal Studio in our very own Country @ Sentosa Island. You don't have to travel to United States already lar~ Hmmm, okay, maybe you should still visit US's one because that's really bighuge and wonderful! Hollywood(L.A, California) is loved! The themepark rides are Awesome! But well, I only have vivid memories about my time in US because it's like 10years or more since I went to the US. I hope what mummy said about our US trip after I graduate is true. Wahaha!

&& I hope Singapore's one can be fun as well, but I doubt Singapore's one can beat them, since we're only a miniature country. Okay, contradicting, I know. Whatever it is, I am looking very forward to 2010 when i can actually date my friends to sentosa to ENJOY the themepark rides and not sand and more sand at the 3 beaches(palawan/siloso/tanjong)! lol. wooohooo~ Thinking about it makes me so excited man!

2010 will be a year of excitement and a totally new beginning! ^^I normally do not blog 2 posts in a day, but this news make me all so excited to share with people!!! (:

Suddenly, my love for our country has grew stronger... :D


ignorance


I feel like a glutton now. I ate loads of food todaythis morning. I ate bread with jam, a hard-boil egg, and I was still feeling hungry. So, I went to buy economic beehoon, and finally, I can feel the "full" feeling. Wahaha! I'm super satisfied but on another hand, I'm super sad with myself lor. Suppose to control and stop eating so much because i'm gaining weight continuously. Dammit!

Yesterday was pretty interesting. I wasn't in the office for the whole afternoon, went to do some "surveying"(not those kind of stand there and ask people questions). We went to Bishan, AMK, Hougang, Tampines... ... Time flies~ and I went home from Tampines. Reach home about 6.15pm, the feeling is SHIOK! It's been really long since I reach home before 7pm. (:

Alright, I'll update again.

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Totally sian diao can! I'm having headache now. Hate this feeling. It is like suddenly lor. And I am super pissed with the SIM LIM SQUARE New State Technologies Sales Supervisor. OMG, damn angry and service sucks like hell. Make me travel here and there. Tmd!


"blastingly" awesome!

Yes, like finally! I caught Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen yesterday evening with mei, dapdap & kok. The theater was damn cold. I was shivering when the movie was towards the end. =.=" but didn't felt cold at the end of the movie. How dumb! Anyway, I find the ah pek transformer(the one that brought them to Egypt) very cute. Cute is the exact word to describe it. haha. Ugly but adorable. (: I felt damn sad when he sacrificed himself to help Optimus Prime "get up on his feet" and fight against the Fallen. What crap name is with "the Fallen". Obviously it will fall flat and lose again what. The name already called Fallen. Stupid.

I was 20mins late for work yesterday & I left office 15mins earlier. Had to rush to amk by 7.15pm. To be early is better then being late and miss the front part of the movie isn't it? So, I manage to reach earlier. wahaha! Well, I just skype with my boss in Korea. He's so funny can! First thing he said was "You're happier when i'm not in Singapore right?" hahaha! Then we chatted abit, help him search abit of things and hang up. I was asking him, did he actually enjoy himself back at Korea, and he said he's very busy. Awwww, that's very sad isn't it?

Well, today started off good. I woke up in time although i laze on bed for 10mins. haha! I happily leave home and I am confident I will not miss the bus like yesterday. While I was waiting for the bus at the bus stop, (lightning struck me)I realised I forgot my phone! God dammit! I knew that if i were to walk back home and take, I'll not only be late, but very very late. So, i went to work without the company of my phone. Booohoooo!~ I'm so upset with myself. How the hell can I forget about my phone? Argh!

So, this result me sitting in office now without my phone and being uncontactable for the whole of today. You just don't understand how I feel. Sign~


PS: You think I care? Do you think I give a damn? I don't give a f*ck about you and your f*cking thoughts! Get your mentality right before talking to me.


do you like colorful or black/white?

I love colourful things. It makes you happier too, isn't it? The bright colours simply cheer me up, totally! :D Like what sunflower does, bright colors can do too. I'll try to reduce the ranting on my blog. It's been overly emotional lately. Not those cry cry sad sad emo, but anger emo type. I don't know what the hell I'm typing. =.=

Well, I'm still not back to normal yet. Still as blur, just that, no flat batteries! haha! My hp and mp3 batteries will not die on me because all are fully recharged! haha. Oh, maybe I'll still have typos while typing(as usual) and *touch wood* fall flat on the ground while rushing to amk later because I wore heels today. Yes, Good Job Celeste. Act smart again lor, wear heels and late for work. Later still rush go amk. Awesome!~ I brought a pair of slippers though, but doesn't match my outfit. That's very very sad case for me.

So anyway, yesterday I went over to Dhoby Ghaut to get the heels imported from Korea. OMG, the heels are totally loved. So comfy and what's more? It's cheap. wahahaha! Took the heels and head over to Cheryl's place to pass her the heels she ordered. My poor cheryl was rushing her assignments. And I was self-entertaining watching tv on her bed. HAHA! After that, dad came over to fetch me. I was thinking why dad was so kind yesterday. "yuan lai" he wants me to drive. He is too lazy to drive. So, i took over the wheels. And when i change the gear to Drive mode and all, i panicked because the car couldn't move. Guess what happened? I forget to realease handbreak. Yes, how stupid! Shhhs, don't tell people. HAHAHA. Then my dad keep laughing at me. Super mean lor. Eh, you better don't laugh hor(i know you're laughing now). Damn rude!

I'm kind of having driving phobia lei. Like driving at CTE, I'll get too paranoid over whether the car is going over to the next lane anot when the car is not even near to the line. wth! But I love driving at CTE and all the expressway la, because the car can ZOOOOOM! haha.

Totally looking forward to tonight's movie session with meiyi and the rest. I'm finally going to watch Transformers! Yes, finally. -.-" How sad right? Only till today then I'm watching. I think we're like the rare few who haven't watch it. I can't wait for Harry Potter! Aunt is going to get tickets for all my cousins, my bro & I! Love her deep deep can. We'll have movie together, late night movie. wahahaha!~

Damn hungry now, off for lunch!~

It's only when the person went through thick and thin with you, then you realise, ah huh, this is the person, the person worth my time/effort spent to care for. In friendship or a relationship. We used to think, we're a clique we're a group, we hangout together. Laugh, joke, gossip, study, play together. Does this mean we are true friends? I don't think so.

It's only when a problem arise. Who avoids it, who faces it. Who bother to take the initiative to care. Till now, many disappointments. Maybe you feel disappointed with me, things that i've said and done. You find it unreasonable, thinking that i'm such a spoilt brat. Whatever you think, i no longer care, it no longer make me feel upset. I don't feel what I've done till this date is wrong. Tell me, where and what did I do wrong? convince me.

Do you actually know, we care, we bother about this friendship. That's why we bother to talk to you, tell you what's wrong and how we felt. Instead of taking what we say as an advice, you took to heart, as an offend. And then you treat us like your enemy. Our care and concern, became your hatred towards us, do you think it doesn't hurt? It does, just that we don't say out loud.

From today onwards, I am not going to care about your problems. You go your way, and I'll go mine. Offend me in anyway? I will never keep quiet and let you go ahead, you take my words(i know you do read my blog). I am not some kind of stupid fool out there letting you bully for nothing. I'm sick and tired of the stupid and childish things you people have done. I've had enough. From today onwards, I no longer regard you as my friend. You don't know how to appreciate, it's your problem. You need to grow up, kid! It's only time, that will make you understand and know the big mistakes you've done, that made all your friends leave you. "toufu" isn't as nice you know. Friends and Family are the ones who will always be by your side. Get this right, acquaintance.

Dearest Friends, do not get affected by this anymore. We should wash our hands until they once again drag us down into it, then we will screw them up. After rain, there's always sunshine isn't it? (:


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I don't have pictures to post. Not really "don't have", is just that I suddenly feel like blogging out my thoughts now. I don't have the mood to do any photo editing or transfer any photos from camera.


&& Cheryl darling it's great to finally meet you today! i know you're still rushing your powerpoint slides now. screw those people, they will get their retribution in the later days of their life. They will learn their lessons someday. Take it that you're doing charity now, and you'll get good payback in the near future. Love you always and good luck for tomorrow's presentation! ;)


Yes or No?

It's been almost a year since I last changed phone. My parents know me better than anything for the fact that I will change a new phone every single year. Hey hey, it's a habit already because my dad does this too! So, Dad actually asked if I want to get the latest 3GS white iphone. If I want, he'll get it for me when mum's singtel plan is up. But that will be about 3 more months. Or should I get the LG Arena using my own line to sign?

If I insist in changing a new phone now, my only better choice is LG Arena. If I'm willing to wait abit, I can actually wait for the upcoming LG Crystal which will be out in the market soon. And I can read up more reviews on it before making decisions. But that's if I'm willing to wait la.

Well, my choices of new phones will be:

1. LG Arena (S$300plus)
   
2. 3GS 16GB white iphone (S$300plus)
   
3. LG Crystal (S$unknown)
   

Please give me some advice. Thanks people! :D


it's friday again! :D


I thought yesterday was Wednesday, thus, I kept telling myself there's 2 more days before weekends. I don't know what's wrong with me recently. I think I left my mind at home. LOL. So, I was surprised when my colleague told me that yesterday was Thursday. Instantly, I felt happiness befall. Oh my, this week really flies, just a blink of eye and it's Friday again! Damn happy. Although I got grounded and counldn't go out, I'm still looking forward to Friday man! It's good that i get grounded, at least for this week, I didn't overspend. If I continue to be like this, my spending will be reduced! hehe~ I like. (:

Yesterday, had lunch with my colleagues and bosses in a Koean Restaurant at Boat Quay. Seriously, I think the KimChi suck. The food, not to my likings, and the price, super not worth it! Luckily, it was treated by boss, if not, I'll feel that I got cheated $20plus for awful food. =.="

My boss will be going to Korea next week, thus, nobody will care what I do at work. He is so nice you know. He even asked if I want anything from Korea so he can get it for me. And he asked, "Celeste, do you want the f4 drama dvd with english subtitle?" I was kind of shocked when he asked la, original from Korea lei. hahaha! I ask him to dabao kimchi for me, from Korea. I heard the authentic ones from Korea are delicious! *drooling*

I hope today will past smoothly because I forgot to put on my happy buddha and my pinky ring. Everytime I forget, it tends to have some unlucky things happening. I seriously don't know what's wrong with me. Something must be wrong somewhere. I've been very blur lately, typos everytime I chat with friends on msn/google talk/skype. Even by having two batteries for my handphone, they can still run out of batt, & I'll only realise when my phone is dead, resulting to people not being able to contact me. This happened twice! this week. It's like almost impossible in the past for this situation to happen. I've not been encoutering battery flats for like ever since I change to this phone. Moreover, I've got two batteries lei. Tell me, what's wrong?! :/

Anyway, you people should tag on my tagboard when you visit my blog. It's really irritating to see my tagboard looking "deserted". My blog traffic keeps increasing yet, the tagboard is so coldly treated. I'm exceptionally irritated when those kpo people comes and read, not dare to tag to prevent me from knowing that they came to my blog, then they anyhow misunderstand about what I type, and get angry with me for no reasons, then go round spreading rumours about me and put words in my mouth(jackson, see ah, is put words in my mouth. haha!). Ya la, I know, no mouth to ask, thats why see I got mouth thus decided to stuff some words in my mouth right? Piece of shit. :@ Sometimes, I really doubt their understanding of English(probably, failed English Comprehension badly). Stupid people with tiny brains.

Please note that I am not saying you. If you self-admit, you are really stupid indeed.

Like I said, I've actually ftp the website up and left with the registration form. Damn sian, need to use PHP. I also never learn before lor. Don't know what the hell is it! I think I'll use some ready made one from those forms website. Aiya, lazy what... You don't know meh, I'm like one of the very lazy person around. hahaha! Well, so I actually stop doing the form for awhile because I am really very sian doing it already. Thus decided to make a photo(the above image) for this entry. It is really original one hor! Word by word, I slowly do one. You seldom see me so hardworking creating image. haha, and seriously, TGIF! ^^

Alright, off to rot & stare at my laptop screen. I hope I'll send my laptop to repair today since it has been mute for really long already! Till then..~


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My laptop has voice once again! I think fujitsu service center @ funan 's service has improved tremendously. I remember, the laptop problem is never solved everytime my friends bring their laptop there for repair. However, this time, I tried for myself since Funan is very near workplace. If not, I would rather send my laptop to Henderson. :D So, my laptop was ready for collection within 2 hours! And now, I'm happily blasting songs into my ears(using ear pieces ma).

This week(inclu. the coming weekends), I won't be going out with my friends. I want to prove to my mum that I can don't go out and meet my friends for 1 week. Ya la, 1 week only. :/ I'll still try to cut down going out next week. I try, okay? :)

I've some things I need to get them done. Adieus all!~


Self-control! *trying very hard*

I actually wonder did i actually live my life to the fullest everyday? The answer is No. Well, what does it actually mean when you say, I live my life to the fullest? Everyone has their own definition to this, and for my case, I think being happy everyday is already to the fullest. It's not that you can live happily everyday you know. Especially when it's on those unlucky days, where you actually fall flat on grounds and embarrass yourself. Having bad hair day, no matter how you try to make yourself look good, you still fail badly. So, if you are able to be happy now, just appreciate it, because you'll never know what will happen the next moment. Hmmm, maybe it's the end of world after that? Then you'll realise, Hey! I've never had a chance to visit the other part of the world yet, haven't seen the wonders in life yet, how can I actually give up on myself? So what if you look ugly, you won't be the ugliest, because there is definately someone uglier. So what if you're fat, you won't be the fattest. If not, you're already in the Guinness World Record already. So live everyday to make yourself happy.

Talking about self-control. If I actually control and limit myself, isn't making myself unhappy? So ya, I am contradicting myself now. Anyhow, life is filled with ups and down. It's only a matter in how you look at it isn't it? I'm telling myself that, controlling now (referring to my spendings), will increase the amount of money I have in future, for "rainy" days and stuffs. And I don't have to feel poor. That feeling really sucks. Seriously, when you don't have money in your wallet, and you can't withdraw from atm, it's like, you feel super lost. My goodness. And I think my credit cards are the main culprits that make me overspend. My parents constantly applying new cards for me. Telling me the privileges for car petrol, shoppings, food, groceries, entertainment... practically for everything. Never did they think, that I'll keep using it to sign till I'm broke. Now, they start to warn me about my spendings, but isn't it abit too late? I'm trying to cut down on my spendings, they can't expect me to stop spending overnight what!

Honestly, I've already reduce the amount I spend by alot. I used to shop online like nobody's business. My account has $1k, I can spend till left $20. Stop asking me how I actually manage to spend this much, because I also don't know why. So, I will and I must reduce my spending. I promise myself and I will definately do it. :D

I know my post is getting very boring. But, it's my blog, I should post what I feel right? In my previous posts, I've rant alot, due to the problems I've been undergoing. I thank all my friends for being my side, supporting me, believing in me, and even trust me. I love you!

Okay, and to people out there who are actually upset, or not happy for the day, try to smile at least a little, it'll help! I'm here, you can share your problems with me, you should know, I'm always here, just a phone call away. :)

Oh oh, I finally manage to FTP the company's website up! hohoho!~ Visit here to view the site. :D


P.S: I'm starting to pity you, but too bad, you made me dislike you. shooo!~


Up and down it goes!

I think i have serious mood swings lately. Hmmm, not pms. These days, people learns to act innocent. I don't deny the fact that I do act innocent too, but at least I don't do it to close/good friends unless it's for fun and playing purpose. I really dislike people who talk behind my back and spreading rumours about me and after that, people come telling me about it. Isn't it stupid or what? You should go find yourself some true friends, dude. We treated you like one of us, yet you decide to drift a distant from us because of some "innocent" party. Wth is this?! The world is changing. Or should I say, my life changed drastically ever since I'm back from Beijing. You know what? I really miss Beijing time so badly because when I'm there, I do not have such problems. I hangout with lovable friends and all I feel is happy every single morning I wake up. Totally do not have such f*ckup problems to face with.

I told myself yesterday, what's done is done. It can never be the same anymore. I don't care it's only one more year to face you or ten thousand more years to face you. You make me despise you, with all your disgusting actions and comments you made. Like I said, you can clarify matters with me, and not smile at me when you're unhappy. If you're saying that I does this also, well, but I don't spread rumours about you. That's so sad for you that people come telling me the comments you made, but no one tells you the comments I made except your oh so "innocent" party. And that person doesn't know any truths. All are assumptions. Why? Because no one, and I meant not a single person is willing to even talk to that "innocent" person. Think for yourself, what you did to us, said about us is right or wrong. Not happy with what I type, confront me then. Stop hiding in your turtle shell. Get the hell out of it, you coward! And you better stop your damnass rumours about me because it's already getting on my nerves. My patience has limits, my dear...

I was damn f*cking angry the past few days, but I decided to chill and cool down a little. If this thing carry on, I would not just silently let it past. I need to control my mood swings. It is getting very serious. I can be very excited and happy for a moment, and the next moment, I get damn agitated and feel like killing those b*tches and b*astards out there.

Someone requested me to blog. This person says that I should blog everyday. Well, I didn't blog yesterday I think I'll probably bombard vulgarities here, which I don't want to.

Although I'm pretty free everyday at work, I have nothing else to update about. Mum says, "You better stop going out so often, your credit card bill is here again." So, I can't go out too often already. Moreover, I've spent enough. Sian! The bill was $100 yesterday. I am broke, once again. ):



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亲爱的燕玲，生日快乐!~~

My FTP isn't working. I totally have no idea why! And thus, leaving myself at a very lost state. My boss isn't around. He will be very busy today meeting clients and all. I doubt he has time to entertain me. This leave me with nothing to do.

So, being a very hardworking me today, I transferred the photos we took on saturday and reduced the size before sending them to dears. && I've edited the above photo. That photo above is heavily photoshopped. Photos are mostly not at it's original state. :/ So, we actually gave yanling the worst birthday present ever! I think she love us even more now. At the very least, she will remember us for life man! hahaha.

I was rushing out her birthday handmade "card" on Friday. Lucky I have Meiyi, Shuhui, Kim to help me. If not, i doubt i can complete it on time. Thanks for your help, Girls. (:

Today, my mood started off pretty badly. I was totally pissed with those selfish people around. Well, but now, I'm feeling much much better. Infact, when i called meiyi just now, she could hear my excitement. Obviously I won't type it out la~

I feel like eating durian puffs. I'm so gonna ask daddy buy them for me. And my hope for getting a new mobile phone this month is gone. Practically spend all my pay on last month's creditcard bills. I seriously need to learn to control my spendings. Anyway, I hope time can past faster. It's only Monday! :(



Pink flowers. Hmmm, this photo is taken in 御花园(the fobbiden city inside that garden). Is it written in this way? :/ Not sure. Aiya, can understand can already. I'm meeting classmates for dinner later. Meiyi is doing me a BIG favour today. Totally love her can! hahaha. :D

And last night was fun. But as usual, ben did some very x100000 stupid things. He is always like that. I've never seen such a stupid person in my life. =.= Ben, please learn to be smarter okay?

Tonight, dears will be coming over to stay. ^^ And what's happening tomorrow will be a secret. Of course I won't type here la, hor yanling.~ :P

Alright, I don't know what else to type. :S Oh, on a happy note, it's FRIDAY! happy happy celeste. ^^


girls talk is loved. (:

Finally, I'm willing to get my hands on photoshop and start editing images. I decided to watermark it because I was feeling bored, thus trying out new things. HAHA. Can waste abit of time also whatttt! haha.

There are some problems going on in office. Nothing personal and nothing related to me. Well, but i'm just hoping that what celyn(my colleague) and I have in mind would not come true la. Celyn has been really nice to me. We don't gossip la, but we solve some HR problems together. It is damn interesting but well, unhappy things do occur when we can't come up with solutions. Signs~

Bosses won't be back to office till after NOON. I have nothing to do till Boss J comes. I need the FTP password and username from him. They're having meeting at Changi office. We'll be moving there next week, i suppose?! Nothing to be elated about because bus stop to office is 10 to 20 mins walk. Damn sad. ):

I totally have no idea what's with people these days. Their mentality is screwed. & i hate guys who snatch seats with ladies. Irritating you know. They can just simply push their way in just to sit! F*ckers. Then the lady who is carrying so many things have to stand. Damn inconsiderate. If you're telling me that this guy must be damn tired, then how about the lady wearing heels and carrying a whole load of things? S*cker! These kind of people are normally those ah peks and ANN(angel just told me this short form. haha!)!! Everytime I give up my seat to someone who needs it more than me, I feel very happy with myself, once again I did a good deed. I don't deny that sometimes I do not give up because i am really very tired. But I will if I'm not, at the very least, I DO NOT push my way in to get a seat okay!

Alright, I can't wait for Friday & Saturday. I miss my dears like hell can! haha. And I think I'll be meeting classmates for dinner tomorrow BECAUSE I'm going to lend meiyi my G2000 card with additional 10% off final bill if I help her pay by UOB card. Hohoho!~ Meiyi, don't you just loveeeee me? ^^ I know you do. :/

Okay, off to do some stuffs. :)


one more year before our turn


I am feeling so lazy to edit any photos. No no, I am lazy to even open my photoshop. How lazy can I be? Well, yesterday I left office at 7.20pm. Aren't you people just very very proud of me? I actually did OT. I practically screwed up the freaking website's css thus leaving me with no choice but to get it done before I go home. It's my fault, totally. For acting smart and edit the dumbass css which always turns out to be rubbish.

Being a lazy me, I decided to just put Daniel's grad photo that he took with us. Credits to Richard. I rip this from Facebook. (:

Anyway, I am super free now, doing nothing but staring at my laptop's screen. Did I actually mentioned that my laptop became voiceless? like me. =.= Totally ridiculous can! When i pluck in my earpiece, there's no sound, even when remove it, the speaker has no sound too. @#$%^&WTH*&^%$#!! And I'm feeling super lazy to send it for repair. Although the service centre is just at funan, which is 1 bus stop away, I'm still lazy la. Moreover, I have more trust with the service centre at Henderson.

I'll see if i'm sending it for repair today or tomorrow. Hmmm, I think later in the afternoon would be a very good choice right? :D


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So, the very lazy me did not send my laptop for repair. I forgot la! Cabbed to expo then back to office this morning. After that lunched with bosses and colleague. Then totally forgotten about my laptop voiceless case. =.=" So, I had a nice lunch with them, chit-chatting as though we're really good friends. Laughing at jokes and talking about how sad we'll be when we shift to the new office due to the stiff atmosphere. Where to find this kind of bosses, you tell me? They are really super nice to talk to, easy-going and what's more? super friendly! I was telling them that I'll come back to work as part-timer during my holidays and they said SURE, without hesitating. Goodness, they are nice people! I should stop complaining about my job. I'm learning to love working okay! No more Monday-Friday blues, i hope. :/

Well, what's even better to add on? I received my pay! Damn happy. :)