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Footprints

hello peeps. (:

my mood is so x10 good today. all the irritating projects are submitted. excluding AIM which is on week 18. I've yet started on it. I'll try doing it this weekend.

common tests are nearing AGAIN. i can't wait for the holidays to arrive!! i love holidays. ~~

After going through so much things for this sem, i learnt alot. and i really mean it. i'm sorry for the previous post as it was posted in such a harsh manner. I was really very angry. With the workload and all, i really couldnt take it. Be it that i couldnt control my anger well or whatsoever, i just blabbered out everything i felt. Maybe it is unreasonable to an extent, but it was what i really felt at that point of time. i've already tried controlling, but it ran out of control. ):

oh, and maybe you've mistaken, i'm not saying you. unless you feel guilty. but i assure that it's not you.

Anyway, what's done is done, it cannot be undone right? people who understood and gave me support, thanks alot.

On a lighter note, there are many upcoming birthdays... !! (:



Fangying! we're meeting tomorrow!!~ (: (:
Hermes is back from TW! i miss her soo much. i am so gonna meet her soon.
Jeanette's birthday is on friday! i am gonna meet her this weekend, i dont care! (:
Cheryl, cheer up cause i'm here!! loves~ we're meeting soon too, dont forget, emilynn's chalet! (:
Nettez's 21st birthday is also this week! Happy advance 21st birthday!!! i am so excited for your birthday manxzxzxz!!~~~ haha. outing on saturday! :D
Huiting's birthday is tomorrow, happy advance 18th birthday sweet! dinner tomorrow.! =)



update soon, and i promise pictures the next time round. bye!

Dear project, you suck.

fuck test, fuck exams and fuck projects. YOU ALL SUCK!

i dont even bother studying hard for common test which cause me to get freaking Ds for DDI and RAD common tests. And now, i have to work or rather spend so much of my free time to rush the damn ass project?

i curse you i curse you i curse you. if you have time to study I CURSE YOU! cause you dont deserve to have that free time to study, to do well, YOU DONT!

Me! or rather us are rushing for projects to be done before the deadline and you have time to study for tests and do well? fuck! the time you have should be taken away and add to the little time we have to complete the project. What is this? we have no time to study for tests just to complete the fucking project which you, me shares the same marks? your hardwork in the project is less than a fucking 10%. I hope you fail, i dont give a damn. You, my friend? my ass!

you make me feel like a hypocrite now. ): DAMN!

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rawh!~ i am so angry okay!

anyway, i am so looking forward to wednesday. I CAN MEET FANGYING like FINALLY! omg. And by then projects will be submitted. NO MORE NO MORE other then animation. but at least submission for it is week 18.


Friday was COOL. we CLUBBED in school with disco ball, loud music. And what's more? you feel that you're in MOS! haha. how weird. but it was great, it was mend to relieve our stress right? haha. Phatnite!!! Photos will be uploaded when i have hold of them. SIT club will be missed and the memories we shared will always be kept. (:


cheryl, i miss you so so so much. ): i miss the times we had in school. the gossips we share. ): call me soon.



i dislike OOAD, i dislike OOAD auntie too!

I've realised that blogging can be a way to release stress whereby you just release everything here.

But to release everything here isn't easy. You still need to think who reads, will it hurt the person whom you're just agitated at this moment and just want to say it out loud, but the person is a good friend of yours?

well well, blogger is a place to share happy moments, but not sad moments. type it out and you never know who'll get offended. Who knows, you'll just receive a lawyer letter one week later.

i dislike you, but it doesnt mean that it'll last for life. Maybe it's only for this moment when i'm unhappy. you have your reasons,i have mine. The fact is, i rather hear excuses than to see you ignoring or pretending you are blind and not see the hardwork that has been put in.

i really dislike school now. it's because of projects, tests, exams which leads to unwanted unhappiness. And to add on... what the hell is with this school?! SIT -> SEG? I am unhappy with this! But there is nothing that i can do. I've already spent 1.5yrs, and i dont want it to just go down the drain. I tell myself, who cares about it, it's just a stepping stone to university. But, that's not the point, i like being in SIT.

back to the subject. after being upset over some things, i've learnt that some friends are meant to ONLY have fun with. and now, i'll rather work with someone whom i dislike, but will help me reduce my workload.

no matter how much i dislike someone, i'll help. unless there is a very strong reason that stop me from helping.

i am not the only one experiencing such incident, even angtint is experiencing it in school, but she uses yahoo!blog, she can lock her post, blogger doesnt allow me to do so. she released all out, and it really makes me envy a little. since i chose blogger, i have no one to blame. maybe i'll get rid of blogger anytime soon if things just get worse and i really need to rant alot more than now.

and i'm seeing people or rather, friends changing. and it's not the way i want to see it change.

all in all, i'm going through similar incidents that i've been through last yr sem 1, but this time it's 3x more. I hate it!

and i hate it even more when people take it for granted. they just dont know how difficult it is to get it half done, dont say completely done, and keep pastering, or rather ORDERING people who are whole heartedly doing it, to complete it at the time they want. WHAT THE HELL IS THIS? WHO THE HELL ARE YOU? i don't owe you anything! if you are capable, do it yourself, if not, i'll appreciate if you just shut up. dont worry, I know you're not mute.

those who care and are concerned told me that "it's not completely done and you submit it? cannot like that. if it cannot work you submit will have problem."

my reply is "i'm going through this ALMOST alone, which you've actually seen it yourself. it's not easy. if i dont submit it earlier, maybe it'll come to such an extent where i'll just have a nice talk with my mum and quit school the next day." anyway, thanks because i know you care for me.

i am already sick and tired with such life. i am longing for the upcoming holidays.

i tell myself that i can go through this 3 yrs smoothly, but maybe i cant. What keeps me going on now is the past 1.5yrs of effort. Although i've not put in much effort, but i've spent alot of time, i dont think it's worth giving up. Maybe one day... but i hope that one day never arrives, cause if it arrives, it means i've given up hope. TOTALLY.

It's just insane. Projects and reports are practically killing me. I'm suffocating.

Please please do not think i am good. I am not! I do not know many things. Not only do i have THIS in hand, there are many more awaiting for me to do them.

I seriously think that it's just thrown to me. It becomes my duty. I seriously want to say out loud but obviously i wont do it here.

I repeat, i am not what you think i am. You think too highly of me. And i'm sorry if i let you down BECAUSE it's too much for me to handle.

This time, the workload is more than the previous time, i CANNOT handle it any longer.






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Yesterday was a long day, was suppose to meet meimei and hui, but didnt meet them in the end. Instead, i spent my whole day with daddy! It was a fun-filling day. Daddy didnt dive yesterday. We took bus to cityhall. He accompany me to the lawyer office to pass the document. Then we went over to Funan IT mall to collect the voucher. Chec wasnt free and she asked me to come back again. So Daddy and I walked to China Town since we have nothing much to do.

Daddy went to office for awhile to get some documents done while i sat on the sofa and rot. LOL. After that, we went to Harold kor's company to look for ah kor! ah kor working there for Harold kor(ah kor's step brother). Programming lor. Wah lau, i see already want to faint. The whole company database and programs all ah kor incharge! His programming skills is OMG good! hahaha. Daddy chatted with Harold kor, who is older than me by 20yrs. haha!! I asked Harold whether he want to employ part-timer not, he was like OKAY! haha. but i forgot to ask him about the pay -.-" But maybe i'll consider working there cause got 2 kor kor there to look after me. Lunch they bao for me, dinner also they bao. Then after that they can happily send me home. Not bad huh? haha. Moreover, ah kor live near me, he can actually drive me to work too!! lol. one stone kill MANY birds~~ (: (:

After hanging out at the office for quite sometime, daddy and i walked to Funan to get my voucher then HOME SWEET HOME! i love daddy!~

Here are the photos i took yesterday while walking from cityhall to china town:









Don't cha think the buildings are very pretty? (:


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Today, went to my grandparents house. I think i missed out the fun at CQ's bbq. But it's a first come first serve basis. My mum knows that the best. She needs to book me before hand. haha. My mum booked me today. And she notified me on Wednesday. So i had to go to my granparents house instead. (: Sorry CQ for not being able to make it. Well, but i'll assure you that your present will arrive before your actual birthday. Anyway, HAPPY ADVANCE 21st BIRTHDAY to CQ!!! :D

ELEPHANT! today, We took this ele from my autie's place and brought it home. (:

So anyway, i was relocating all my photos and i came across these!

MIT!!!

FMO brings great memories. Meeting many friends. Sometimes i wonder if i never went to camp eagles, didn't join for FMO planning stage, how will life be right now?

The hard work then was painful and tiring, yet we manage to pull through together. One thing for sure, i never regreted joining FMO planning stage. (:

I am feeling really lazy to update because i have actually a whole load to update about.

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BO is finally over! Everyone hardwork is appreciated. (: I was really fully drained on friday night after BO. But because i wanted free cab home, i went supper with jiaming, jiapei and some others. Terry was constantly disturbing me, but thanks to my tired brain, i wasnt able to defend myself. haha (: I learnt alot though!

The no. of bottles of new water we had. PUB sponsored BO!


Hanging up backdrop!


Cleaning the Amphitheater.


Putting up the banner!


Outlook of backdrop and banner!


Audience.


BO commitee!!! (:



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On saturday, i practically slept throughout the whole day. Energy was replenished!

Went for granddad birthday dinner at River Palace. The ala cart buffet was GOOD. I simply love the food.

The resturant.


My family were early, thus my brother and i took photos! (:


My cousins eating! :D



Baby Trina! adorable right? (:



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Yesterday, met meimei at amk for marketplace then went to bishan for movie with audrey, jiaming, jiapei, joel, zerong, thomas, yongkuang, alvin. I bought an elephant pendant from regina's store. haha she was working yesterday. Anyway, back to the topic. We watched Hancock! It was really hilarious! After the movie, i was suppose to go home since i promised my mum that i'll reach home by 10pm. well well, but i was dragged to jalan kayu for supper instead. Supper ended at around 11pm. the rest cab home while jiaming, jiapei and i strolled down the road. We sat at the bus stop opp the florist plantation(?) and chatted. At around 12plus, we cabbed home. $9 cab fare thanks to 50% midnight charge -.-"


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It seems that blogger have changed some functions. I'm unable to upload photos direactly from blogger. what a pain! well, but i dislike picture-less post. thus, i tried to upload some photos. (: BYE!