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Footprints

I am feeling really lazy to blog. So, no pictures for this post. :)

These few days of CNY was not really very good compared to the previous years.

Grandmama passed on last yr. I still remember the whole scene. The moment you rush to the hospital, and speak to the doctor, the doctor tell you that she had left peacefully... And how do you even know she left peacefully? Did she like even say?

What's worst? I'm the one who experience these. I was the one who spoke to the doctor. We were having serious family conflicts(till now i suppose) at the time, and all i can do is cry and feel sad and all. WHY? Because the last time i saw or even spoke to grandma was a yr ago. I just felt so guilty to the very extreme. The feeling of crying at night alone in the room, this guilt just stay with me for life. Although during the wake we do had some "fun" in which catching up with my cousins and all(due to my BIG family) but still when the moment i think about grandma is gonna be gone forever it's just so heart breaking. :(

Although there were spoky stuffs happen after that, it's still okay cause i'm already used to it(by now). My aunt keeps saying that i'm my grandma's favourite grand daughter. Although she's a very tranditional lady(inwhich boys are better than girls), she still cares and adores me since young. Protect me from all odds. But what did she get in return? Nothing from me. :( I mean like, although i've already overcome all these, but to think back and all, it just dont make me feel good.

Whatever above! (i'm just ranting here, you can just ignore)

So ya, angbao received were little. Practically i just slept at home on the 1st day of CNY. And was busy rushing here and there on the 2nd day. zzzz Went over to cheryl's place on the 3rd day for her birthday function, and home for party. Yesterday was tuition day and out in the evening(photos!) and today will be tuition day and rotting at home.

Anyway, photos will soon be uploaded unless i feel lazy and decided to forget about it.



Happy 18th Birthday CHERYL! love you~




I'm off!!