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Call me Celeste
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Footprints

Recently, i keep having mood swings. They just come and go. I am feeling very very moody now! damn! I dont know why. But i feel like vending my anger! I just feel like doing so! WHY IS THERE ALWAYS SUCH THINGS HAPPENING! there are certains i cant blog here. So, it's hard to understand. I dont want to tell anyone, i want to keep it all to myself. But i feel that i'm gonna explode. I can no longer take it. Maybe i'll become insane someday. I feel that i've become a stranger to myself. Okay, it sounds crap, but just let me crap about it! at least i'll feel better after this. I think life is unfair. Far too unfair. I hate my life! I really do. I rather live in a small house, and i dont mind having financial problems. No shoppings.. It's okay! if i'm used to that kind of environment i think i'll be fine. Sometimes i really hate what i have and even what i am. I am who i am, that cannot be changed. I'll find a way to change it. It will not take effect now. Wait till i find a way, i shall not give up! How i wish there's no problems. I feel like a loser now. Everyone is a winner except me. I'm so not in a mood to think of other things. At this moment, i really hate myself!


I do accept the fact of who i am. Of course i do. But really, if there's a guardian angel out there, please hear me out! i really need to stop all these mood swings and stuffs! If not, just slap me and wake me up! I'm having a terrible nightmare now! So what if i'm happy when i'm not alone. It's not really whole-heartedly happy. Where did that Celeste went to? I dont know. If one day, i dont even laugh, i think that'll be the end of me. Cause i've even lost my laughter. It sounds funny and i want to go hahaha but i just cant type it like haha and an exclaimation mark at the end. Hate me or love me, your choice! Cause i've chose to hate myself.


Take this post as invincible. Ignore if possible. Don't ask anything. Pardon me for these junks and thankyou!