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Sunday, May 27, 2007 @ 10:23 am

I'm really very very lazy to post about 20th may. SO maybe you could view angtint's or huiting's blog to read it. haha.

So, i was suppose to meet hermes yesterday but well, we didnt meet in the end. I went to my grandma's place. And baby Trina was still as adorable! She's so happy when she hears the "cuppy cake" song. haha. And i was tell yanling, jianwei and esther that when you hit your leg at the joint there, the leg will auto kick up! hahaha. and yanling & jianwei were hitting each other with full force. I tell you, it's damn pain kay! hahaha.

And i'm on diet now. But I'm not as crazy as Chris! i still do eat. Just that i'll cut down on fried stuffs and less rice. That's all. =D

I'm meeting my PD group for disscussion later. SIAN. so lazy to go all they way to woodlands. Can i not go? haha. I HATE PERSONAL DEVELOPMENT!!! humph!~

I'm here again! again! hahaha

Friday, May 25, 2007 @ 6:49 pm

So... I'm once again back to post! hahaha. And about 20th of may.. I'm lazy to post about it now. Maybe i'll post it on sunday! lol.

The past few days were school school and school. Had graphic design test today. Ah, i trace the watch and it's so not nice kay! That's why i dont really like illustrator! I think i wont do well for it. No inspiration while doing. Totally no mood lo. The thought of it make me "sian-ed" haha. I hate projects and assignments. But still, I simply love the HTML's mini project. It sounds so fun! I can make a new video for it with new edited songs. Few copyrights more "celeste's" property stuffs! hahaha. And background cursor and stuffs... I feel happy when i think about it. I hope it'll go well. But still, it'll be tough. I remembered the last time i made a video, i took almost 2 hrs to do it. Including the cutting of songs. =D Ah well, hardwork pays off well... So why bother much if i'm gonna work hard for it. =D

And so, i went pool-ing with meiyi, evelyn, shuhui, reva, KL, chris and regina yesterday. And Chris and regina didnt play. And i still suck at pool. Damn! hahaha. But it was fun! After that met fangying and went for pool again!~ hahaha. Was very very tired after that though! =) The top i bought online is here!!xD

Oh and THANKYOU Shuhui, Meiyi and Kokleong for accompanying me to wait for my friend! loves~ hahaha. Suppose to post this thankyou yesterday but was too lazy to online.. haha. Meiyi, shuhui, kl.. see ah, i post already!! hahaha.

I shall update more next time. =D

sudden mood swing

Monday, May 21, 2007 @ 11:56 pm

Recently, i keep having mood swings. They just come and go. I am feeling very very moody now! damn! I dont know why. But i feel like vending my anger! I just feel like doing so! WHY IS THERE ALWAYS SUCH THINGS HAPPENING! there are certains i cant blog here. So, it's hard to understand. I dont want to tell anyone, i want to keep it all to myself. But i feel that i'm gonna explode. I can no longer take it. Maybe i'll become insane someday. I feel that i've become a stranger to myself. Okay, it sounds crap, but just let me crap about it! at least i'll feel better after this. I think life is unfair. Far too unfair. I hate my life! I really do. I rather live in a small house, and i dont mind having financial problems. No shoppings.. It's okay! if i'm used to that kind of environment i think i'll be fine. Sometimes i really hate what i have and even what i am. I am who i am, that cannot be changed. I'll find a way to change it. It will not take effect now. Wait till i find a way, i shall not give up! How i wish there's no problems. I feel like a loser now. Everyone is a winner except me. I'm so not in a mood to think of other things. At this moment, i really hate myself!

I do accept the fact of who i am. Of course i do. But really, if there's a guardian angel out there, please hear me out! i really need to stop all these mood swings and stuffs! If not, just slap me and wake me up! I'm having a terrible nightmare now! So what if i'm happy when i'm not alone. It's not really whole-heartedly happy. Where did that Celeste went to? I dont know. If one day, i dont even laugh, i think that'll be the end of me. Cause i've even lost my laughter. It sounds funny and i want to go hahaha but i just cant type it like haha and an exclaimation mark at the end. Hate me or love me, your choice! Cause i've chose to hate myself.

Take this post as invincible. Ignore if possible. Don't ask anything. Pardon me for these junks and thankyou!

Happy!

@ 9:45 pm

BOO!

I had a reallyy fun time yesterday!!! so happy!! hahaha. Haven't receive the photos yet!~ When i receive all, then i'll blog about it! woohoo. At least i finally met up with them! hahaha. =D

till then~ i'm feeling lazy already...

I've post this before but again..."It's amazing how we always take people for granted when they are by our side. It is only when we are on the verge of losing them then we realise how important they are to us." SO, do treasure and cherish people around." xD

Sweet 17

Saturday, May 19, 2007 @ 9:38 am

Happy belated Birthday Angtint and myself! <3 hahaha!

And so.. i'm back to blog again. =) It'll be a long entry today and i think i'll be blogging again on Sunday!! I'll be meeting the girls! =D

The day before (17may), i had a pretty fun day! Woke up at 7.15am, which means i'm gonna be late for class, but still, i arrive in school at 7.45am cause daddy fetch me to school! see, i'm such a lucky girl. Okay, so graphic design lesson was still as boring. We did tracing again! This time, we used the pen tool. LOL. And as usual, i was online chatting with angtint and also reading some blogs and SUDDENLY, i heard people singing birthday song, and i took like 5sec to realise that my classmates were singing for me! I was so slow kay! and shock... hahaha. But still, i love my classmates plenty plenty. =D

And after class, some of use headed to Mac for breakfast. After that, they went to east coast for roller blading while i met Fangying! And some really dramatic thing happened. When i board the train, fy called me and told me she alight from the train. But the train was already leaving yck station, so we ended up meeting in the next 10mins train. hahaha. Okay, and so we went to Haji Lane. And all the shops are pratically not open yet. AND and it's already 1pm. OMG la. After that, we went to Bugis street for lunch. I took some of fy's salad and i finally realise that lettuce with mayonese is not really THAT bad after all. haha. We went shopping around bugis street and i bought a necklace! i really love it! haha. And we walked under the HEAVY heavy rain over to paco bugis. It was REALLY cold. We walked around for awhile and decided to go another place. And so, we ended up at vivo. I bought a pair of heels from tangs. I'm not feeling rich, it's just that there is OFFER!!! Cannot resist it! haha. And then to f21. Then to Zara and i bought and Elephant top. Elephant is so CUTE!!lol. And we went cam whorring after that. Then we shop around till 6 plus. I went to meet Hermes for dinner while fy went home. Thanks fy for accompanying me for the whole day! And so, i met Hermes at sommerset(is this the spelling?) station. And we walked all the way to taka for dinner. As i had 8am lesson today, we only shopped for awhile then i went home. And Hermes really freak out at the sight of SNAKES! haha.

HAJI lane!!! haha

I love FANGYING!

As for yesterday, it was pretty good too! I woke up at 7.15am again! haha. And i took a bus to school and i wasnt late. woohoo! Morning lecture was B-O-R-I-N-G. Then graphic design again. I was slacking like hell. Then Kim, Wendy and i had lunch at Kou Fu. After that we sat outside the lab waiting for the next lesson. And i kept laughing again thanks to Wendy, Liang Hua and Alvin. These jokers... hahaha. AND the last 2 lessons past really really fast. It's like 4 hrs just flew off without knowing. After that, Shuhui, meiyi, yingying, alvin, kokleong and i went to grassroot to check out the billard room, see whether we can play there not. But they say "Slippers not allowed" Damn! haha. We sat outside the billard room and slack for sometime. Then Yingying went off while shuhui, meiyi and i went to amk. Alvin somehow decided to go play pool with us. Thus, he met us outside AMK hub. LOL. And pool really irritates me kay! AH, the worst game ever. I was so.. ARGH!!! I think alvin teach me till want to die! haha. That freaking stick! so difficult to hold LA! haha. Anyway, i dont deny that is was pretty fun! hahaha. And thanks for teaching me, Alvin and Meiyi! haha And shuhui was patient to see me anyhow hit those balls. haha. Lucky me, i know those rules, if not i think they'll want to bang head against the wall already! hahaha. Oh well...

Alvin's Shirt! So adorable right?!? hahaha. Really don't match Alvin. *nods head* lol. x)

Meiyi! Thanks for the present!! Loves~

Meiyi and i went off 1st. As i was on the way home, my mood somehow had a 180 degree change. I became pretty moody. I thought of alot of things. Those happy, sad and angry stuffs. I recalled about the past and all the misdeeds I’ve done. I just have the urge to turn back time. Why can't i just turn back that freaking time. Damn! Sometimes, I feel as if life is so unreal. It seem so great for others yet not for me. I feel that I’m at the outside of everything. It's like there's a layer of thin glass between me and reality. I know, life is not fated, that's true. My life lies in my hand. Sad to say, I’m unable to twist it. If one day I really stop slacking and work hard, maybe life would be better but I don’t know when it'll be. Maybe later, tomorrow, next week, next month, next year or NEVER. =(

I'm having a mixture of feelings now. And i have a very very bad feeling. And the thought of it makes me agitated. I hope it doesn't happen BECAUSE there'll be a drastic change in me. Trust me. You won't be able to see me smile or even talk. When i get pissed off, i really means pissed off! I'll not be my usual self. No laughter, Nothing! I'll pray for it NOT to happen. And the fact is, i ask myself whether is it true, and the answer for it is NO. So, if it happens, i'll get REALLY pissed off cause IT'S NOT TRUE!

And now, the thought of grandma makes me sad. Do you know that i really regretted? I really do. ='( She passed away for 80 over days already. I was asking myself when the last time I spoke to her was, and sadly, it was last year's CNY. I felt so sad, I felt so bad, I felt as if it was end of the world. I was looking at the photo I took with grandma last year. She looked healthy. I remembered I rushed to hospital from workplace but was too late... I saw her lying on the bed. I cried. Everyone cried. Did she left peacefully? I hope she does. I really do. During the wake I met up with my cousins, they said, when will we meet after this? I don’t know how to answer. It's grandma who link us all together. It's her. The one who took care of me when i was a little girl. I was her favourite granddaughter... I find myself so useless. I never get things done correctly. Celeste, you are so USELESS! I really do hate myself at times.

My cousin and i during grandma's wake. That's like gonna be the last time we meet? =(

I'm usually smiling and laughing. It's me when i'm out with my friends. But when i'm alone or with my families, i don't. I really Laugh Out Loud when i'm together with my friends. And yet, not my family. My parents treat me really good. Maybe they're too busy with their stuffs to really bother about me. And I, will do my stuffs and i realise it's been long whereby we sit down and talk. I seem to be alone. My problems are with me all along. Just that i keep them at home. I always tell myself to be happy when i'm out. I can face ALL the problems when i'm back home. It's okay! However, i gradually realise that i have difficulty facing some problems. There's time whereby i have a strong urge to give up but NO, i didn't. And i'm feeling so much better after typing all these things. But not everything can be shared, i think i should start writing diary entries. =)

I shall end off with this photo.

My dad told my brother. See, children cannot drink milk using milk bottle, if not traffic police will catch. Then when my maid made milk using milk bottle for my brother, he drew all the curtains so that the police cannot see him and will not catch him! HAHAHA. This really made me laugh!

Thursday, May 17, 2007 @ 8:36 am

Happy birthday to me! hahaha

The day started at 8am. and school again for me. Oh it's graphic design and it's super boring. Yes, and i'm unattentive again! hahaha. I shall not blog more already...

Happy birthday to angtint in advance! seeya so0n. Loves~

HELLO!!!!!!xD

Sunday, May 13, 2007 @ 1:36 pm

HELLO!

hahaha. I met up with Hermes yesterday and i bump into Chris yesterday (chris saw me! As usual i'm not the one who spotted my friend. I'm such an unattentive blur girl. =( ). Hermes and i were suppose to meet at AMK hub but we met at cine instead because she woke up late. And so, we went for k and she was telling me to go k on my birthday but at night. As it's ladies night, so it's only 10bucks. But i doubt mummy will allow. Shall see how.. lol. So, after k, we went to kino as i need to get angtint's present. I bought a book written by Xiaozhu. And then we went to Paragon walkk.. LOL As i need to go to grandmama's house for Mother's day celebration, i ask hermes to go holland v to shop a lil. hahaha. So we went there awhile and hermes went home and i went to ahma's house hahaha.

There! Hermes and I. =D

I was chatting with Cheryl online that day, and she said that i should ask my classmates along on thurs and we go sing k. She said she wants to make NEW friends. HAHAHA. and i said okay. So i'll ask my classmates tomorrow. =)

See the dophine chop? hahaha HTML class the tutor gave me cause i completed the assignment. Lame right? hahaha/ -.-"

And look at this! I saw this online on friday night. The person is selling at NT400/450 (S$20/22.50), cannot remember. haha. But i saw it in tw last nov and the person said it was NT350 (S$17.50). And the shop was at Xi Men Ting! Damn, i regret not buying the other time. =( If only i can to tw again...

I will be back soon.. Till then\

Bah!

Thursday, May 10, 2007 @ 8:16 am

I'm blogging early in the morning! When will i do that? hahaha. Only when there's 8am lessons. I hate 8am lessons kay!~ I'm forced to wake up early. I'm using this com during graphic design. =D Okay, i agree i'm not attentive during lesson. HAHA.

Mummy told me last night that my aunts will be going to hongkong to shop this oct!!! screams!!! I also want to go!!! I love going overseas. I love travelling!!! *nods head* I hope they go during my holidays before school opens. xD

EIGHT more days and i'll be Seventeen!!! so happy kay! hahaha. And i realise that i haven't buy angtint's present! hahahaha. well, nevermind. I'll buy it next week! hahaha.

Chris.. Dont' nag already. nah, update already! haha. =P

I have nothing to add on already. Till then...

sad sad sad...

Saturday, May 05, 2007 @ 7:55 pm

It's been long since I last posted.

So this week was purely okay. I was fpissed off with someone. One side of me said it was okay the other side of me was so agitated! Ah! Feel like screaming out like. About something fun! I went back to peirce on Thursday with fangying and nad. And i had a great laugh talking to MR TAN yaojin. LOL. He is still as lame as ever. Oh no, he's lamer. hahaha. Mr Yeo changed alot too. He don't look as energetic as last year. He looked so stress. So, went to City hall with fy. I was feeling really tired. Oh and Fangying.. You dont know how much I "hate" you kay! hahaha. Can’t wait to go to uk funfair with you! hahaha. x) And angtint and i are gonna celebrate our birthday together again! haha. Like we do that every year! hahaha.

I still have undone assignments. I hate them. Fassignments, projects!!!! I really feel like screaming till i got no voice. I feel so ARGH! Damn!!!

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